Me? Myself? I?

This will be the last post for the year.
The last post here too!

Have a great year ahead in 2011! :)

11:59 PM

Another year is going to end soon. 2011 is coming.
There's nothing for me to look forward to.

2010. It was another year that I grew older. Matured slightly a little.
Lots of things happened this year. Be it happy ones or sad ones.
Lots of changes too. Many walked in and out of my life.

Too many things that I want to remember. Too many things that I want to forget, but I can't.

YOG experience, US trip experience. It's where I've gained a lot from. How can I forget about the camp that I've gone through so much?

Something that happened around April/May, I can't forget. It was when I know what can really make me feel so down.

Something happened few days back. It gave me a shocked. Now I'm still fearful.

What is in the past, is meant to be in the past. No point looking back.
Memories should be kept than keep looking back.

2011, another busy year. Another year with lots of ups and downs.
New Year resolutions?
Too many to list I guess.

But I hope that family members will be healthy. :)

12:00 PM

Last 1 day and 1 hour of 2010.
Let's see how it's gonna end.

Happiness. Sadness.

11:00 PM

It's not about how careful we are. It's not about how steady we are.
It's about how reckless others are and how we react to the situation.

That few seconds, it's still clearly in my head.
Phobia I guess. Good luck!

10:25 PM

When things changes, it will never go back to how it is like before. Never.
No matter how you hope it will be the same, it still won't be the same.

At times, won't you just wish time just stop at that particular moment?

11:22 AM

What's happier than able to meet up with all the freaks after one long year? :)
We stay so near, yet we don't have the time to meet up frequently. All the busy women.

We still had our fun as usual.

When will the next meet-up again? Not too long please...

9:36 AM

已经尽力了。。。算了。

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It's already halfway through the last month of the year.
I'm so not prepared for the new year and there's nothing for me to look forward to other than another busy year.

Anyway....
Had great day with Qi & Ying. We finally went to watched HP7 after registering for the tickets about 3 weeks ago?

11:36 PM

Back here for a few days. Back on msn, fb and twitter for a few days.
But it seems that I have got used to not updating fb, twitter and not going online.
Updating for the sake of updating?
Online not even chatting?

Perhaps, it's time to move on.........
Let's see how....

11:52 PM

It's not surviving well. Doing what we are suppose to do. But nothing seems to be working.
Do we really have to ask people around us to help in order to keep it moving?

But who will bother to care so much to help?

6:14 PM

MSTs are over. Like finally back!

Do you know how stressed I was for the past 1 week or so?
I dreamt twice about MST. =.=
I couldn't sleep well for the whole of the week even when I tried to go to bed early.

Two days before all the papers start, I dreamt that I totally missed taking the first paper. Because I woke up and the test was over already. =.= The previous time I had such dream was last semester's MST?

The second dream was the night after ERP, next day's paper was Econs. But I dreamt that during ERP, at the last minute, I realised I didn't do one full page of the question. =.=

Last 2 days of papers were early in the morning. How will I be sleeping well worrying that the next morning I wake up and I forget everything and worrying that I might be late for school?

No idea how well I'll do. But I alreay know there were some mistakes here and there.
But I know, I studied. I did my best.

And it's over.

I had a good 1 hour plus nap.

It's time to plan how I'm going to spend my 3 weeks. There's too much to do, too little time.

5:36 PM

15 Dec!
21 Dec!

At least.... There's 2 dates for me to look forward to.

11:54 PM

对不起。
如果我无意间伤害到你，影响到你，对不起。
都是我的错。

12:42 PM

I just remembered something!
I won't exactly have anymore holidays!
School breaks that I don't have to do assignments.

It's going to be all the way till end of poly life.
How sian can that be?

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Sometimes, I just don't bother to tell. Don't bother to explain.
I'm tired of repeating myself.
Sometimes, I just want to keep it all to myself.

11:09 PM

The best thing now is really to have the time all for myself....

11:01 PM

It was another 10km today. Run for hope 2010.
Haven't been running for more than a week. That explains why I couldn't run as fast as Nike's.

The organisation was really bad. All the tentages were at the muddy filed? Haven't even start running and there goes my shoes again.
When the race started, the flag off was so soft that I wonder if it really started. Squeezing between people, cutting here and there just to find a comfortable spot to run. Other than not running for a week, I guess I didn't really had the mood. Started to walk and jog a bit after the loop.
Ohya, there wasn't boards that states how far we have ran and they gave us bottles of water during the run. =.= It's like so heavy carrying a water bottle while running.

Afterall, I did complete the race. But the satisfaction wasn't as good as previous races. Perhaps, if I'll ever join more races, I'll never join any race that it's held at ECP. It's so inconvenient!

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很想逃避现实，很想放弃。
I don't know how am I gonna survive through this semester. I don't have any confidence in any of this sem's module. Everything is neither here nor there. Assignments are not even proceeding well. Even handling a Facebook page is killing me. Tell me what can I do? I really can't imagine how bad this sem will get. I don't even dare to think of MST. I don't even dare to think of the 3 weeks break where I'll be crazily doing all the assignment.

I really really have the urge of giving up.

9:20 PM

It's still bothering me. I just can't get over with this.
I guess it's time to do some reflection again.
Need to find one corner for myself again.

12:16 AM