Me? Myself? I?

All from the start we've said...

We do not have any experience at all.
We are not those who can get high easily.

They are expecting a lot from us.
They said they will help. But did they?

I'm really scared that everything doesn't comes out well.
I'm really not prepared.

Aren't I suppose to be worried for my MST instead?

11:03 PM

It's time to step out of my comfort zone.

I know they are just afraid of who will be the ones accompanying them going for the trip together. They feel uncomfortable. So do I.

But I can't stuck here and give up even before trying.
Moreover, I wanted to go since last year.

USA.

When will I ever have a chance to go?
Since there's a chance, why not?

What if I'm alone?
That's when I have to learn to get along with new people.

10:56 PM

I've said before...
This semester will be one of the worse semester ever. If I'm able to get through this, nothing can be worse than this? I hope so.

Withdrew from Sustainability. I shall concentrate on my diploma instead.

I really don't know how much stress I'm going through. This is worse than what I've experienced before. It's because of everything happening together that cause me to be feel this way?

我要怎样发泄呢？

10:49 PM

I need to vent everything out!
I really cannot take it anymore.

The stress is driving me crazy!

11:20 PM

I tried to concentrate.
I tried to absorb.
I tried to cope with everything.

But now, BA seems to be not coping well. Which is a very big problem.
I don't want to sacrifice anymore. I've sacrifice too much for other things. I really can't afford to do badly for any modules.

Econs seems to get more difficult. But I'm liking that module. :)

More videos to do. More time needed.

I should really quit and concentrate on all these modules instead.

It has come to an extent that some of us had the sudden urge of saying we don't want to study anymore, we wanna drop out of school...

8:19 PM

To add a little colour to this space...

12:02 PM

Went touring Singapore again?
I'm really tired after shooting for almost 6 hours!

Under the sun for one whole day. What I get in return was heat rash and become slightly tanned and I can see my specs' shape on my face.
Took quite a lot of random photos. As usual. But at least I'm quite satisfied with some.

Chinatown --> Little India --> Bugis --> Raffles Place

How am I going to plan the next event when we covered so many places today? Where else can we shoot?

11:28 PM

I'm halfway through the first term. 4 more weeks to go!

Feeling more and more tired each day. The tiredness seems to keep on accumulating even when there's weekend. Weekend no longer is a time for me to rest. It's more for me to do my tutorials and assignments.

Tired. Sleepy.
I need a day to sleep well. I need a day to do nothing and just rest.

7:25 PM

To stay on or to quit? I haven't make my decision.
To stay for the extra certificate?
Or to leave to have lesser stress and burden?

I know I'm easily being influence. That's why I have to make my decision right.
One has decided to quit. The other is indecisive too.

How?

1:38 PM

I had the urge to just scream at him yesterday when I saw that 4 letter words on msn's pm.

I should not have thought that he is starting to become mature.
If he is smart enough to study everything in just one day, I won't bother to care. But he is not. I don't understand why he can just spend all those time on useless games and not spend it on his books? At least during exam period?

It's his own problem if he fails any of his exams. What's the point of complaining to me that he doesn't wants to fail and doesn't even want to touch on his books?

I don't bother asking him to study. But my mum does.
What happens when telling him properly to go and study?
He will just shout back and feeling irritated.

That's when I saw him putting that 4 letter words on msn.

So smart? Score all A's then!
So smart? Don't ask me anything regarding school work.

ARGH!

7:35 PM

Went for the YOG 99 Days Countdown just now. The security was really tight.

Not as crowded as I expected when I reached there. Actually nothing much except for the fact that I get to see the mascots? And able to meet up with Syafiqah again. It's the companion that makes me enjoy the night so much.

Chatting too much. Laughing too much. Plus with my cough, my throat is so dry now.

11:55 PM

This coming Wednesday!! 12 May, 9pm @ Channel 8!

9:50 PM

What's the "best" thing when there's so much to do?
It's when you fall ill and don't have the energy to do anything.
It is when there's really an excuse to leave everything aside.
But when you're recovering, that's when all the work has pile up and got to face it again.

8:52 AM

"Why jie sleep so early?"
I heard my brother asking my mum while I was sleeping yesterday night.

After a long and tiring week. I need my sleep. Coming home rather late everyday.

I almost could not take it and feels that I'm falling ill. But luckily, I didn't.

There's no time for me to fall ill. Too many things coming up. All I can do is to do everything as soon as possible and have enough rest.

9:26 PM